Hi bloggee,
So as I said on my homepage, I want to start a fearless journey. This journey will consist of overcoming my fears and insecurities!
My first tackle is one of my insecurities which in a nutshell is just "caring what people think".
Under this catergory there's the insecurity of my body: legs, arms, chest, feet, armpits.. Then it's scared of being myself around certain people.
The next step will be overcoming fears of spiders (definately not looking forward to this), heights (or this), insects in general and I will add to the list as I think of more.
So it begins with my legs. I do not like my legs at all, I have stretchmarks, and discoulourations everywhere so I don't like wearing dresses without tights. So to start off, I decided to wear a dress on Sunday to church. It was SO nerve racking and some people in my church did eye out my legs but at the end of it I thought, "That wasn't so bad.. who cares?" and it gave me a slight boost. I have a long way to go still but I'm proud of myself of taking the first step.
I will eventually use bio-oil and whatnot to rid of the stretch marks and even out my legs but I want to love myself before I do so. I've learned that if you don't love yourself the way you are now, you'll never love yourself even after modifications.
To some it may seem silly but It's okay because this journey is about me, not them. I'm sharing it with the world because I wan't to encourage at least one person that may read this blog and to also review this when I'm older to see how far I've come.
A picture will come soon. Just one.
Until next time.
Sildie
As always
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